lots of fucking

going down

in this story

lots of

not very nice

 

sometimes you

fuck cause you

don't have a

choice

cornered where

nobody

would hear your

voice

 

to keep yourself alive

you teach yourself

to like fucking as fucking

like having a smoke / stroke

 

you finish yourself

you teach yourself

mattress mindfulness

you teach yourself

breath control

you learn to hover over a bed

you learn to hover above yourself

you learn to drift away

one of the tricks of the trade

 

to keep from finishing

he's concentrating

it's difficult for him

like counting to ten

 

and

you think

oh, just get it

o-ver already

oh, just get it

o-ver already

oh, just get it

o-ver already

oh, who you

trying to impress

 

you think about

something else

somewhere else

you learn to drift away