Monday, 3 June 2019

tomorrow



church bells
a festival
a woman
singing
soul and flesh in
a single ecstasy

tapping at the window
a curious bird or
a friend coming by or
a branch in the wind?

stretched legs
from hips to toes
a woman
letting
go of tension
a turning ceiling fan

sweetness in the air   
a gift for us or
for some other species or
for sweetness itself?

a new coin tossed
shining in her hand
and dare she look
at fate in her palm?
at unplucked berries  
warm in the sun?




Thursday, 30 May 2019

the family myth


in the family myth
we escape winter
we escape water 
we escape the amnesia of the sea
and somehow there's me

in the family myth
we escape desert 
we escape searchers 
we escape the arbitrary decree 
and somehow there's me

all of this must be true
because somehow there's me
and somehow there's you

in the family myth
we escape cages
we escape rages
we escape the rogues of history 
and somehow there's me

in the family myth
we escape post-war
we escape closed door
we escape the Land of the Free
and somehow there's me

all of this must be true
because somehow there's me
and somehow there's you

in the family myth
we know their order to shoot on sight
we cross the border and move by night
and go on

in the family myth
we cross the water of a rolling sea
and all of us, some of us, one of us
must slip free
and go on

in the family myth
we escape exposure 
we escape erasure
we escape the men who hack the family tree
and somehow there's me

all of this must be true
because somehow there's me
and somehow there's you




Tuesday, 28 May 2019

Imagined Geography 6: Limes Song


tell Olivia 
the view from this wall
it is beautiful
this river ever flowing
it is beautiful
the distant green-grey hills
all are beautiful

tell Olivia
if you get back to Rome
she is beautiful

tell Olivia
if you get back to Rome
I wish I were there

here is her picture
a lock of her hair
when you get back to Rome
say I wish I were there


Imagined Geography 5: Vienna Song


this is Vienna
beneath this dome
under the car park
this is my home

hopping the turnstiles
dodging the landlord
looking for something
hidden here before

under Vienna
city in ruins
city of ghosts
all up in smoke

you take the fast train
nightime from Linz
something seen once
never seen since

not since Vienna




Sunday, 26 May 2019

Imagined Geography 4: Texas Song


Texas is its own religion
Texas is the belle of the ball
Everyone is born in Texas
Texas can bear it all

Everything is big in Texas
Texas is a thousand miles tall
Everyone is born in Texas
Texas can bear it all

Texas is as big as all Texas [[ x times ]]

They cross the big river,
listening to Jesus,
but finding the devil
in a counterfeit star.

Everyone is welcome in Texas
Texas doesn't need a wall
Everyone is born in Texas
Texas can bear it all

Texas is as big as all Texas [[ x times ]]

They cross the big river,
listening to Jesus,
but finding the devil
in a counterfeit star.


Texas is as big as all Texas [[ x times ]]



Imagined Geography 3: Oklahoma Song



Have you seen the sky 
open over the plain?
One minute, soft moonlight,
then thunder and rain.

Have you seen the sky 
come to swallow you whole?
I have seen a town vanish
soul by soul by soul.

Have you seen what God thinks
of an Oklahoma town?
I have heard God roar
and then swat one down.

Have you seen the sky 
open over the plain?
One minute of dying,
then clear sky again.

Imagined Geography 2: New England Song

a stolen Volvo
of all things
rolled on the dunes 

kids all hanging 
upside down
still listening to tunes

out to covered bridges
out to the beaches 
out to summer cottages
out past our reaches

summer homes 
full of nothing
bric-à-brac, 
knick-knacks.
ruck sacks, 
kayaks,
quick snacks
nut sacks,
racken-fracks,
six packs,
a fishing shack
out back
bring back
a stickleback
bring back
the click track
the click track
the click track

drunken college girlfriends run together in my memory
drunken college girlfriends run together into the sea


Saturday, 18 May 2019

Imagined Geography 1: Montana Song


bounded by perfect
four solid walls
north south east west
one good window

bounded by perfect
one endless road
nowhere each way
but away, away

here in our place between
zero and one
love me from here 
to the end of that sun

here in our place between
before we die
love me from here
to the end of that sky

if you ever leave me
but you will never leave me
but if you ever leave me
I will be in every reflection
I will be the ghost in your night 
I will be in every direction
I will be, I will be, I will be
but you will never leave me

bounded by perfect
surveyor lines
fences and rails
the horizon

bounded by perfect
circular sun
hard solid earth
plain hard sky





Friday, 3 May 2019

buildings coming down


here, a slice of steel and glass 
a sky-high stack of offices
a mirror sixteen stories tall
to check your teeth for greenery

buildings coming down [[ pause... ]]
to the seashore
buildings coming down 
to the sea

look, a building knifed in two
a bathtub hanging in the air
this is how the joke plays out
when we are old, when we are grey

buildings tumbling down [[ pause... ]]
to the wrecker
buildings tumbling down
to the sea

the sigh and the shrug 
of a building facade 
melting suddenly 
into the sand

the crack and the roar 
of the air between us
turning suddenly
into a cloud

[[ it might be about aging, or urban renewal, or terrorism ]]


animal person

I'm an animal person, she said
I'm an animal-person, she said
I'm an animal

Let me take your coat, I said
No one takes my coat, she said
Sorry, my mistake

Don't get your back up
We're animal people
We're all animals here


[[ maybe something to do with feminism and vestigial chivalry, maybe something to do with animal rights and fur coats, maybe just an awkward encounter ]]

Wednesday, 1 May 2019

yellow contraption


we could put flowers 
in your hair
a dozen sunflowers
burning air

a yellow contraption 
is what the folk 
would make of you 
but fuck the folk

we could put violets
in your hair
small flowerlets
behind your ear

but who would know
and who would see
and we don't care
who who will be

a yellow contraption 
is what we'll make 
(and hope 
dear vertebrae
don't break)
bright lovely quake
and fuck the folk




Tuesday, 23 April 2019

we kill all vampires



watch everyone around you
every soul you see
is shedding misery

we kill all vampires
every Saturday night

we take an antidote before we go
to prepare our souls for the fight

we resurrect our monsters
bring them back from the dead
to kill them one more time

we kill all vampires
every Saturday night

we push a cure as pure as we dare
to keep off the vampire's bite

when we are conjuring our own ghosts
out there in the back
we reach way way down 
we reach way way down into our killer kits

and prepare for attack

we kill all vampires
every Saturday night

we take an antidote before we go
to prepare our souls for the fight

we kill all vampires
every Saturday night

we push a cure as pure as we dare
to keep off the vampire's bite




Saturday, 13 April 2019

now where were we?


[[ a song about how we try to find and describe our own consciousness ]]

now where were we?

the parts of the thing
try to trace
the shape of the thing

a beam of light
tries to see
the source of the light

the wind in the air
wants to know
the sun and the air

we are
nowhere in particular, we are
a bend in the road, we are
a draft through a door, we are
the iridescence of fly, we are
an eddy in a river running down to the end of all time

now where were we?

neither here nor there


[[ a song about where we are when we're on the phone ]]

she is so far away
hiding words 
at the end of a corridor

she is balanced on air
reading paint 
at the end of a corridor

if all you think 
is all you hear 

if all you think
is in your ear

where are you now,
woman on telephone?
are you neither here nor there?

she is thinking elsewhere 
giving herself
to a telephone microphone

she is moving her mouth
mouthing words
to a telephone microphone



Thursday, 11 April 2019

Are you picturing distance?


Are you picturing distance,
perhaps some other hills,
and the hint of water there?
This is what I thought.

This landscape is
photons, vibrations,
the inhalable molecules
of life on the air.

This landscape is
brochures and other ephemera
your mother received from
chambers of commerce.

This landscape is
the 'grey' and the 'white'
I have written on a plain
sheet of white paper.

This landscape grows
more distinct now, rolling
over the hills of the
thing in your skull.

Are you picturing distance,
perhaps some other hills,
and the hint of water there?
This is what I thought.


Monday, 8 April 2019

intentional love song 19: rescue


wounded in a corner, you sit
crumpled on the floor, you sit
slumped at the bar, you sit
falling through a door
into another country
and sending all the messages home

what will become of your soul?
where will it fly to now?

go through your inventory
let your anger roar
jealousy, lust, and fear
we've seen it all before
tick, tick, tick

the source of your fear, in here
a stack of curled bones, in here
a bundle of nerves, in here
sending out runners
to the ends of your senses
and sending all the messages home

what will become of your soul?
where will it fly to now?

you want me now 
to come to the rescue
the jaws of life opening 
wide to extricate you
tick, tick, tick

extricate your soul 
from the wreck of your heart?
as if ever the two
could be teased apart!


Saturday, 6 April 2019

stumps at the VA hospital


[[ previous poem in verse/lyrics form, with two sections ]]

= = = = =

Wait for us here.
in the designated area
Don't make a move
or we may never find you.

Hang on to your balls, boy,
We're going in.

A man with a stump
for a leg wheels in
stump-first down the corridor
stage left.

A woman with more stumps,
fewer limbs, rolls in
propelled by a nurse
stage right.

The two cross in front of me
and pass with no sign
they notice me or anything.

Hang on to your balls, boy,
We're going in.

= = = = =

Now I am running
through all the possibilities
like it's my job to shoot
these action movies

A prehistoric helicopter shot out of the sky
by a man with a cylinder at his ear like he was listening

A slow fat cargo plane with entrance and exit wounds
by three gunners who simply can not believe their luck

A pressure-sensitive mine planted long ago
by a dead man and forgotten until just the other day.

An IED laid yesterday with a telephone trigger
for the man whose only job was to watch and to push

A sniper hidden, still, and unsuspected
'til he fires off one, two, three from a mile away

I can't stop running
through all the possibilities.
I can't stop running
through all the possibilities.









what could happen

I am waiting in a designated waiting area. Do not move, I am told.

So I hold still in a middle of a row of plastic chairs in a corridor with my interlocked hands resting over my crotch.

A man with a stump for a leg wheels stump-first down the corridor from the left. 

Simultaneously, a woman with more stumps and fewer limbs rolls by the other way propelled by a nurse looking for somewhere to leave her. 

By chance, they cross almost exactly in front of me, the chairs with the people with stumps, and pass on with no sign that they notice each other or me. 

Now I'm running through simple possibilities like it's my job to shoot action movies.

A jet fightSURPRISEer shot right out of the sky by a man with a cylinder held to his ear like he was listening for them coming. No, a big fat slow cargo plane shot at and shot at aSURPRISEnd shot right through lots of smoke and three men with artillery who cannot believe their luck. 

A pressure-sensitive mine planted by a dead man, by which of course I mean he has since died, and forgotten, the man and the mine, unSURPRISEtil the other day. Or a mine laid just yesterday with a telephone trigger for the man whose only job was to keep watching keep watching for tSURPRISErucks coming out of the town. 

A sniper half buried in sand and invisible for all practical purpSURPRISEoses witSURPRISEh a riflSURPRISEe designed for such occasions. 

I can't stop running through all the possibilities.

we sailed with the pilgrims

[[ a drinking song? no idea. it just came out this way. ]]


we sailed with the pilgrims
but not what you think 
for we were all pilgrims 
alone on the drink

we sailed with the pilgrims
but not how it sounds 
for we were all pilgrims 
lost in the rounds

looking for a home from the sea
looking for a sea that would carry us home
looking for daylight after the moonlight
looking for dark under the big starry dome

with the scouring sky hanging over
with the swallowing sea shore to shore
with the dread of the known close behind
with the dread of the unknown before

we sailed with the pilgrims
but none of us pure 
for we were all pilgrims 
in need of a cure

we sailed with the pilgrims
but none of us good 
for we were all pilgrims 
in need of a bed

intentional love song 18: love is love


[[ As in all situations, change genders freely. It's a love-centered love song about love (losing love) love love.  ]]

love is longing to be
love becomes love
love is love is love is love is love
I am only love

but
love is falling apart
love undoes love
love is no longer, no longer love 
I am nothing

then I am mourning
I am mourning love

you catch yourself 
crying for
crying out loud

get hold yourself
you're s'posed to be 
right by now

get over yourself
but it's not me 
I am mourning

then get over him
but it's not him 
I am mourning

I am mourning love

but 
love is longing to be
love becomes love
love is love is love is love is love
I am only love

love is falling apart
love undoes love
love is no longer, no longer love 
I am nothing

then I am mourning
I am mourning love

you catch yourself 
crying for
crying out loud

get hold yourself
you're s'posed to be 
right by now

get over yourself
but it's not me 
I am mourning

then get over him
but it's not him 
I am mourning

I am mourning love

I no longer breathe the breath of life
love is the aroma of life
I no longer taste the flavor of life
love is the season of life
love is the season of life
love is the season of life
and love has died

but
love is longing to be
love becomes love
love is love is love is love is love

I am only love